Return

I've returned to good old Hillsdale, and I've got ridiculous amounts of work to do. I've got a German exam on Friday, for which I need to catch up on about three books. I've also got my philosophy comps on Wednesday. Four hours of philosophy exam fun. I can't wait.

In good news, I went and applied in person at the Apple Store in Columbus. I filled out the form and gave a manager my resume and cover letter. A few minutes later another manager came out and gave me an interview, right then and there. It went really well, I think, and he said he'd let me know in a week, which is a good sign. Keeping my fingers crossed. BTW, as a point of clarification, this is a part time Apple Specialist position. If you look at the job description on the Apple website, this is not a technical position, this is a retail position. They want people who can sell computers, so really communication, teaching and interpersonal skills, coupled with a passion for Apple products, are what really matter for the job.

Spring Break

Well, I'm on spring break. It's fantastic to get away from the Dale, and it's been pretty nice being with the family. I've been helping my mom with chores around the house...my sister is so amazingly lazy that my mom just loves having me around for some help. Tomorrow I'll be heading to Columbus to visit my dad. The poor guy is living by himself right now until he and my mom can move into their new house in Delaware. It'll be nice seeing him, and I'll be able to apply in person at the Apple store. Hopefully while I'm there I'll also be able to talk my dad into buying a Mac...I'm so close...he's looking into a Powerbook. With any luck, I'll also talk him into getting me a 20in. iMac G5 for graduation. Druel. After seeing the paterfamilias, then it's back to Hillsdale so I can see my best bud Jared. He's taking a break from his acting internship in New York. It'll be great seeing the guy.

Till next time, kiddoes.

Guns and Japanese Chicks and Law Schools

This is why gun control is ultimately stupid.

I met lots of South Africans while I was travelling in Britain, and they were some of the nicest people. It's a shame they have to deal with so much violence.

Here's a site with some crazy Japenese ads.

I decided to call OSU today...they aren't going to have my application status known till after April 1st. At least now I know.

Game

Tonight, I've realized to my utter disappointment, that I really have no functional game whatsoever. I seem to remember being at one point witty and charming around girls. Now it seems that I just don't care enough to really try. Maybe my subconscious is tripping me up due to years of difficulty and hardship with Sarah. Or maybe everyone around me knows that I will be gone in 2 months, and as such they could care less about me.

Again, back to the whole Hillsdale being boring theme. Perhaps I'm complaining too much, but why do 95% of the people here seem so boring? Or perhaps, are they simply just bored with me? Am I the boring one? Let's hear a vote...am I boring or not?

Of course, it could just be the 3 hours of sleep I got last night talking. I get cranky, like a baby.

Otherwise, I still despise it here...who'd have thought not having any real friends would be so hard? I plan on leaving Hillsdale, and not coming back for a very, very long time. I will not return for homecoming, I will not return for fundraisers. I will not be a graduate student who comes back to party in Hillsdale. I will not be a part of Hillsdale College once I have left. If I move, I will not give my new address to the college, and I will tell my parents to withhold it from them. I will not give money to the college. I will do my best to be the most apathetic alumnus humanly possible.

And no, I still haven't heard from law schools yet.

Next time I have a post, I'll try to sound more positive. I promise.

The wait continues

Today, I opened my mailbox, certain, it being Monday, that I would find that nice big fat envelope from Ohio State. Disappointment, yet again. However, in good news, OSU informed my father that if accepted, I would only have to pay in-state tuition at OSU, which is awesome. That's what I was hoping for, and will save me 10 grand for the first year.

Procrastination and wasting time turns out being useful, after all: this morning while laboring away in the graphics lab, I discovered I could apply online to a job at the Apple Store in Columbus. They have three positions available, and I have a chance, it seems to me, at at least one of them. I did so, and with any luck, I could be working my dream job as an Apple Specialist part time throughout the summer. Yes, I know I like Apple way too much, and yes, this may be setting my goals ponderously low, but at least there's one job in the world I would love doing.

This site features some wicked cool cars tricked-out with Mac Mini's and iPods.

Parents Weekend

I'm not really sure why parent's weekend disgusts me so much. Maybe its all the yuppy parents who descend on Hillsdale. Its as though my school is being invaded by all these foreigners who don't normally belong. Maybe its just because my parents never come.

I got the iPod Shuffle armband yesterday. I had to wait more than a month for it, it cost $30, and I'm a tad disappointed with. Yes, its small and looks great, but 30 bucks seems a tad steep. $20-25 would have been much more fair. Apple overprices their accessories, but oh well, at least now I can run and lift with my iPod Shuffle conveniently out of the way.

Every day I open my mailbox, hoping to see that big fat envelope from Ohio State. Every day so far I've been disappointed. Its one of the many things in my life slowly driving me insane. I've already been accepted to MSU, but the prospect of spending the next 3 years in Lansing does not appeal to me at all. If I don't get into a law school I want to go to, I'm just not going to law school next year.

Till next time.

Considerations

I haven't blogged in a while. I drummed at Eileen's senior recital last Friday. Its was just a little set of Scottish tunes, but everyone on campus has been complimenting me on it. We practiced for like 10 minutes the night before. I'm like, "its just what I do". Either I'm really talented on the bodhran, or people just have no idea about drumming. I'm leaning towards the latter.

Man, its been a hellish sort of week. I've realized that I'm a few weeks behind in a few of my classes, which has me in a tizzy of self-punishment. At least I'm actually beginning to study again.

Sarah and I talked on the phone for 2.5 hours on Saturday evening. She realizes she wants to be with me, but only if I really, really want to be with her. I'm still not sure what to do...all I know is that I'm pretty lonely in that big ol' house of mine, but I'm definitely not ready to start seeing anyone else. If only Hillsdale didn't suck so bad.

In good news, I'm gradually beginning to recover my faith. One eventually tires of delving into the morass of philosophic inquiry.

Why is it that whenever I talk to people they seem bored with more, or not interested in me? Am I a boring person? Yet, this only seems to happen at Hillsdale. Must be that Hillsdale people are boring...or perhaps I'm just bored with Hillsdale people. Either way...I just need to fucking get out of this place.

Angst no more

For the past week or so, I've been sorta moping around. I suppose I feel slightly lost, now that my future has completely changed since Sarah and I broke it off. Today, though, I've realized I need to stop moping and start accomplishing. Time to rid myself of my existential listlessness and begin caring again. A life where one is not engaged, with no passion, is hardly worth the bother.

Of course, this all might be pushed by the looming spectre of midterms coming up, and I'm pretty far behind in most of my classes. Too much time spent with NCAA Football.

In other good news, I'm surprised at how I'm beginning to enjoy my Reist class. I think he's beginning to dispel the debilitating doubt about Christianity I've had for the past two years. Strange, too, that now that I've broken up with Sarah, I thnk I believe in God again.

Weird, huh?

Observations

Observation 1: Being sick with some sort of wicked virus for 2 and a half days really sucks.

Observation 2: I was truly fooling myself when I thought things with Sarah were going well...I think I was talking myself into it. It's pretty lonely in Hillsdale for me anymore, and I think I wanted to avoid being alone.

Observation 3: Being single isn't that bad.

Observation 4: Dances at Hillsdale suck.

Observation 5: I feel like I've dodged a bullet.

Till next time, kiddoes.