Considerations

I haven't blogged in a while. I drummed at Eileen's senior recital last Friday. Its was just a little set of Scottish tunes, but everyone on campus has been complimenting me on it. We practiced for like 10 minutes the night before. I'm like, "its just what I do". Either I'm really talented on the bodhran, or people just have no idea about drumming. I'm leaning towards the latter.

Man, its been a hellish sort of week. I've realized that I'm a few weeks behind in a few of my classes, which has me in a tizzy of self-punishment. At least I'm actually beginning to study again.

Sarah and I talked on the phone for 2.5 hours on Saturday evening. She realizes she wants to be with me, but only if I really, really want to be with her. I'm still not sure what to do...all I know is that I'm pretty lonely in that big ol' house of mine, but I'm definitely not ready to start seeing anyone else. If only Hillsdale didn't suck so bad.

In good news, I'm gradually beginning to recover my faith. One eventually tires of delving into the morass of philosophic inquiry.

Why is it that whenever I talk to people they seem bored with more, or not interested in me? Am I a boring person? Yet, this only seems to happen at Hillsdale. Must be that Hillsdale people are boring...or perhaps I'm just bored with Hillsdale people. Either way...I just need to fucking get out of this place.