Tonight, I've realized to my utter disappointment, that I really have no functional game whatsoever. I seem to remember being at one point witty and charming around girls. Now it seems that I just don't care enough to really try. Maybe my subconscious is tripping me up due to years of difficulty and hardship with Sarah. Or maybe everyone around me knows that I will be gone in 2 months, and as such they could care less about me.
Again, back to the whole Hillsdale being boring theme. Perhaps I'm complaining too much, but why do 95% of the people here seem so boring? Or perhaps, are they simply just bored with me? Am I the boring one? Let's hear a vote...am I boring or not?
Of course, it could just be the 3 hours of sleep I got last night talking. I get cranky, like a baby.
Otherwise, I still despise it here...who'd have thought not having any real friends would be so hard? I plan on leaving Hillsdale, and not coming back for a very, very long time. I will not return for homecoming, I will not return for fundraisers. I will not be a graduate student who comes back to party in Hillsdale. I will not be a part of Hillsdale College once I have left. If I move, I will not give my new address to the college, and I will tell my parents to withhold it from them. I will not give money to the college. I will do my best to be the most apathetic alumnus humanly possible.
And no, I still haven't heard from law schools yet.
Next time I have a post, I'll try to sound more positive. I promise.
4 comments:
sheesh dude. at least you´re not at rose hulman eh?
Yea, I suppose that's true, although if I'd stay at Rose, at least I'd have a chance at a good job without grad school.
Tom,
I felt the exact same way. Once you're done with Hillsdale, you have to let it go. I don't think it's a healthy place to keep returning to and remaining attached to. The college, that is, I have no opinion about the town itself.
Di
Oh, don't worry...I won't be coming back. I take "moving on" very seriously. When I'm gone, I'll be gone.
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